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I took a pay cut for mental health

I took a pay cut in a time of economic uncertainty. I willfully resigned in peak COVID. I quit my stable job when my industry was flooded with applicants with more experience. I did it for my mental health.


My job looked good from the outside. It was stable (as stable as a job can be mid-pandemic). The organisation was fully government funded. The job itself was good, not too stressful, and suited me. I never worked late, and the pay was great. But my workplace was toxic.


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I'd been thinking about leaving my job for months and months, and would go through phases of applying for other positions. But I hadn’t sustained it. I was lucky to have a well-paying job, and it wasn’t that bad, I told myself. I went through ups and downs with applications, and none of them went anywhere.


I eventually hit a breaking point when I had the worst meeting of my career. I jokingly refer to it as ‘the ambush’ to my friends. But it wasn’t really a joke at the time. I felt like the scapegoat for my team. Someone to blame anything and everything that went wrong on. I was told my work wasn’t good enough, even though I’d been around for quite some time with literally no complaints.


I didn’t react at the time. I didn’t really say anything. But I knew how completely unfair and just fucked up the situation was. That thought was only solidified by others’ reactions when I recounted the experience. My friends told me to go to HR, that what I had experienced was bullying. But I just wanted to leave.


The problem with job hunting when you are desperate to get out of a situation is that employers totally hold the power. I tried to remember that I didn’t want to go from one bad thing to another, but I overlooked many things that would usually be red, or at least orange, flags. I applied for multiple jobs every day, over 30 a week, until I finally got an interview.


The job seemed good. The company was a lot smaller than the one I was leaving. It was somewhat in my industry, but definitely not a step up. I saw it as a step sideways, but I doubt everyone would agree that it was. The interview went well, so I stopped applying for jobs, which is not what you’re supposed to do, but at this point applications were taking over my life.


I got the job offer via phone call one afternoon and verbally accepted. They sent the contract the following day and my stomach dropped a little when I saw it. It would be a 25% pay cut after tax. I started googling, looking for some reassurance that taking it was the right thing to do.


‘When should you take a pay cut’

‘Pay cut mental health’

‘Is taking a pay cut okay’


Most articles chronicled workers taking pay cuts to move industries or cities, accept exciting opportunities, or spend more time with family. A couple reassured me, but only slightly. I called my friends and family, strategically making contact with the people I knew would tell me that taking it was the right thing to do.


I knew I was going to take it. I was always going to take it. I couldn’t fathom the idea of saying no to an opportunity to get out of my toxic workplace. I just wanted a few people to tell me that what I was doing was the right decision. The people who did were, expectedly, the ones who had heard me complain about my job the most.


So I took it, of course. I've always heard people talk about feeling a ‘literal weight’ coming off their shoulders when they make a decision like this one. I always thought it was a little hyperbolic, but I felt it. I felt the weight come off, I felt my posture improve, and the upper back pain I’d been experiencing for most of the year was gone.


It’s been a couple of months now and I’m a few pay slips in. And I’m happy to report that I am fine. I’m good actually. I made the right decision. So if you’ve found this article while googling frantically, looking for some reassurance that you’re doing the right thing - you are.